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i finally found my love forever
It always entered my mind, what is love? Will I experience love? Does love actual exist? Due to my impatience I had gone through a fair share of boyfriends, and they were mostly bad ones too.
There I was; a sweet innocent girl who just wanted to be loved and to love that one special person that she would store in her heart and have in her life forever.....
There was one boyfriend that stood up from the rest but not about how nice and good he was, but rather how much of a liar he was and a coward he was.
I was exceptionally happy with him at the beginning, and we had been together for four months; which were a happy four months, He lived quite close to me but only saw me once a week due to his hectic lifestyle, when I think back now maybe I was one of many he had at that particular time.
It was a perfect evening and Rob and I went to the park when he told me that next week he was off to Australia for three months for his work placement. I was quite upset because I knew I would miss him.
The day he was leaving, for some strange reason I had a funny feeling he was not really going, and that he was lying to me; they say that if you think something then you are probably right.
I rang his mother who said he hadn't gone to Australia and never really went. I confronted him, and he told me that he was not ready for a relationship.
Boyfriend Number 1:- Coward and a liar.
My 2nd boyfriend was a nice guy who I had met from the Internet we chatted everyday and got on really well.
One day he was in London and wanted to meet me. A word of advice to people who meet on the Internet and do what I did:-
Step 1:- Always let a member of family know, or a friend know exactly where you are meeting that person on your date.
Step 2:- Always leave your mobile phone on. If you don't have a mobile phone please make sure you borrow one off a friend so that you can call them in an emergency.
Step 3:- Always meet in a public place.
Chris and I met up and he was so perfect, and I would definitely say it was near to love at first sight, though he lived in Athens temporarily due to the fact he was studying there. I did manage to see him, I would go to Athens and he would always come and visit me too in England so it worked well, the only problem with Chris was he would always put me down and never complimented me.
If he saw another girl walking past us who was good looking he would always say, "Wow look at her she is gorgeous".
It got to a stage were I always felt down about the way I looked. After a year he began to use me and stayed with me until he found another girl...This hurt me a lot.
I then dated a couple of other guys who didn't respect me or just didn't want a long-term relationship. Six years of this. .. and all my head and heart would say is, "Where is the love?"
I know at 21yrs old I shouldn't have be thinking about love and I should be having fun but I think my obsession with love all started when I was ten years old, I was bullied a lot when I was a child at school and I felt everyone hated me, hence why I wanted to be in love so quickly.
I had reached 22yrs old when I had got a job as a holiday representative and my job was sending me to Ibiza, Spain which I was highly happy about, when two days before I was meant to depart, they told me that they could not send me to Ibiza and that I was going to Turkey, I tried to change my destination as I had heard some bad stories about Turkey.
It didn't work and I had no choice but to go to Turkey.
The 2nd day of being there, some fellow colleagues and I went out for a meal and then decided to go to the bars. During the meal I was talking to my friend who said to me who would your ideal man have to be like? And I replied, nice olive skin, deep green eyes, nice body, perfect skin, and fun to be with, a great companion, trustworthy, takes care of me and who really loves me.
After the meal we decided to go to the bars, but I wanted to buy some chewing gum, I was in a street where there were three supermarkets and I went to the supermarket on the corner.
I walked in and that's when I saw him - my first ever love at first sight.
I started to feel all funny inside as my eyes met his, a tingling sensation went right up my spine, this man was beautiful. He was exactly the man that I had talked to, to my friend. Had God listened to my cries of love? Was this really it?
I walked towards him and started talking to him, he was Turkish but spoke perfect English, I had mentioned that I would like him to show me the bars one day because I was new to the area, so we exchanged telephone numbers.
That night I received a text message from him it was him he had finished work and was asking what I was doing, so I asked him to come to the bars.
I was a little scared …would this guy turn up or just blow me out like the rest did? On time he was there and he took my hand and we danced the night away, gazing into each others eyes, giggling in the night, I never wanted this night to ever end just feeling his hands on my back stroking my long hair, feeling his lips on my neck, kissing me lightly.
It was amazing. I was in love; this was really it, I'd finally got what I had wanted for sooo...long. But did this guy like me? Was this a one way thing??
At the end of the day, he walked me home, holding hands feeling safe to have him in my presence.
Talking about life, and then he stopped and pulled me forward and said, I know I have only just met you but I think I am falling in love with you, I agreed and replied I am too.
We thought we were young and crazy, throughout the months we had our arguments and we had our problems but we got through them, and were still in love. We have been together five months - not long I here you say, that's what everyone says.
He is the perfect boyfriend and he really takes care of me, he does what a man should do, he looks after me, and financially looks after me and he loves me.
Turkish people have a bad reputation but as a say you should never judge a book by its cover and I have had bad boyfriends in my time so I know when there is a good one...I am happy and on 28th January we are getting married, and I am sure we will live happily ever after.
MUSTAFA DALKILIC I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I AM HAPPY THAT ONE DAY I WILL BE YOUR LOVING WIFE.
LOVE YOU LOTS, ARLINE XXXXX
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