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Failure as a man, father, and husband
I feel the same as Kevin. I have been married for the past 7 years. We have two children a 6 year old girl and a 3year old boy. Though we were once in church, we stopped going a year ago and went to Las Vegas where I cheated on my wife with one of her cousins who came along with us. One miserable year later after, failing to uphold the promises I made to make up for my sin, I stubbornly and blindly started a relationship with another women via Internet. It was discovered by my wife, who has felt the same betrayal again from me!!!
I feel so stupid, hopeless, for what I did! I was blinded by Satan and put-off getting our lives back together with God and this is where it go us. She is no longer in love with me and wants to end our marriage. We have separated for one week, and this has given me the chance to see what I have been neglecting with her!! I was SO blind; she was so good to me. I am soo tortured that it has taken me until after her love is gone to appreciate her many year's of sacrifice towards me... an ungrateful, betraying husband! I know God has forgiven me and I hope that he can help us stay together, and if so that I will love and cherish her and never again - hurt her again.
Since learning that she no longer loves me, I having simply lost the will to live, I feel as though she is my oxygen. I have wanted God to take me, though it is all my fault. I have felled as the spiritual leader in our home, and have hurt her more than she can bear. I know that God can do anything and I know that I am sooo unworthy. PLEASE say a prayer for me!!!! I cry in agony as I write this, I am so sorry for what my actions have done to those around me! GOD, PLEASE SAVE MY FAMILY AND HELP ME BE THE MAN I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE!
I am trash and fall on my face broken in every manner of the word!!!! Jesus!!! Please forgive me, and allow me to have the chance to serve and cherish the woman of my dreams!!!! I am so alone!
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