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trying to get by
its been about a year since I submitted a writing about Sandra G.
Now I am 58 years old and I still have never married.
In fact now I am as old as my mother's father was when I was born.
I never knew my father's father because he died when my father was in high school
I have not been active on the Internet for a large period of time because the need for money makes it necessary to work as much as possible.
I still have never forgot Sandra since I met her in May and June 2001. I do call the telephone line in Boston called the Samaritans, and GOD bless everyone of them they are so nice to me since they know how much I desired to have married. I wish I could by everyone on the telephone line a house for when they marry and pay for their college education for both the telephone line workers and their spouses, because these people are so nice to me and I think if I was rich and could do what I mentioned I would do for them it would be a small part in the way to say thank you to them for being so nice to me. I remember recently how reading in the New York post of 2 single women living in Manhattan. One thought it was wonderful living there the other wanted to get money so she could move away. Both women were in there late 20's and the women who wanted to move away from Manhattan mentioned how she would notice it would be 5 hours since someone talked to her. I am so sympathetic with the lady who mentioned going 5 hours at a time without companionship. I wish she knew about the Samaritans of Boston.
I just know there is really no hope for my marrying. I just wish since it is so hard getting someone interested in talking to me for a period of time didn't prove to be so difficult. for what life I have left I would like to accomplish this the most. I do feel like I really missed out because I never married, it is getting easier for me to say that’s my lot in life.
Last spring I had to have a biopsy done, and the oncologist did declare that I am healthy. When I was voicing this concern to the volunteers of the Samaritans of Boston, I was informed of some books that would help me handle the psychological assault on me if it turned out I had cancer. One of the books was written by a person named Speigleman, called Maus, about his father's ordeal under the days the Gestapo was controlling his father's country. His father at the time was hiding out with his wife and the author’s older brother. The most memorable part I found was how it described how the authors father would have leave his family in a hiding place so he could search for food in garbage cans at night. Every one of these times the father went searching for food he was risking being shot to death by the Gestapo. This made me realize that never being married is not as serious as what some other people had to go thru. I still yearn to be married, and I am so thankful for those memorable moments I had engaged in conversation with Sandra G.
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