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He doesn't love me anymore and there's one on the way
My boyfriend and I have been dating for almost 10 months and while that is not very long we were very in love from the beginning. He even called his dad after about 4 months and told him he was getting married. He's 29 and I am 26 so this is not the first time we have experienced love. I thought I had found the man I was going to marry. He and I found out we were expecting a baby in early February and the baby will be due in early October. He has been very supportive since we found out and we have been making plans to spend our lives together. I was under the impression that would get married after the baby was born. A few days ago he told me that he wasn't sure he was in love with me anymore.
We had fought quite bit before the holidays but we have not fought at all since we found out about the baby. We were both upset when he told me about his feelings so we sought counsel from God and prayed together. A girl from work had asked me a few days before if he and I had ever prayed together and I said we hadn't she said that we should and it would make us stronger. I figured that this would not only help us in our current situation but bring God right into the middle of our relationship. After we prayed he said he felt like he had reached a calm in the storm but was still unsure of what path to take. This is tearing me apart. We have been trying to make decisions for staying together or breaking up.
The day after we talked I started telling him that I thought we would be okay and the words just started flowing and I felt this immense sense of calm and hope but he is still unsure. The week before he was saying that I just need to have faith hope and love to make it through all of the moving and financial pressure that we were facing and I had kind of made that my mantra and decided to have faith. Right after I had that sense of calm we were talking and the baby moved, it was the first time I had felt it and it's really early still (I am only 14 weeks) so that was miraculous. I guess I am writing this because I am looking for advice, prayers and well I guess a place to write down my feelings. I have been scared to tell anyone because I am already an unwed mother-to-be and I hate to disappoint my family more. I am just not sure what I will do if we do break up. I hope that whatever decision we make will be the right one not only for us my for the baby (we call the baby 'Peanut') as well. Thanks for taking the time to read this and I hope that is anyone else is going through this situation they will read this and realize they are not alone. God Bless!
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