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What a mess
Hello, this is to anyone out there who will listen…
Almost a year ago I receive an instant message from someone who says they are an ex girlfriend of mine. They give me a few clues to which ex it could be and after about 3 months I finally find out who it really is. Come to find out that her name is Kristin Williams and not an ex girlfriend of mine. She was at the time with a man by the name of Chris Hunt. I was not with anyone at the time. Kristen and I began talking on the phone almost every night and became very close. Her and Chris were having problems and soon went their own ways. Chris owned a house, Kristen in an apartment about an hour from here. Despite the fact that Chris had his own house, he would barge into Kristen's apartment and refuse to leave and also stay for several days.
Kristen and I always talked about meeting each other and she always told me that the time wasn't right yet. She was very nervous, as was I. We began telling each other that we loved each other around this time. In February, her grandmother passed away and Kristen, being raised by her, was very upset, felt lost most of the time. Because her grandmother lived in Flint, which is the city I am residing it, she was in town for the funeral and to clean out her grandmother's house. I asked her many times while she was in Flint if she could, just for a few moments meet up with me just to say hi. Everything before this was going good between us. She stopped answering her phone and then about 3 days later she called me and told me that she was in Texas and would be staying there with her friend Elanor “BIRD”.
My heart dropped. I had been anticipating seeing her so many times and then this happens. I was feeling very down. During this time of her in Texas, I started seeing my ex girlfriend. Kristen met a guy named Jesse. He is in the military. I don't know a lot of the details with them, but things didn't work out with me and my ex again. I, at the time, was in a bowling league, which goes to Las Vegas every year to end the bowling league. I don't remember the dates too well but I want to say it was in May or June that I went to Vegas. I had begun talking to Kristen MUCH more again about 1 month before Vegas. Anyways, while in Vegas, I stayed up into the early mornings on the phone with Kristen. We were back to telling each other I love you.
I was staying in a room with one of my teammates. I offered to pay for Kristen to come stay with me in Vegas and she refused. Bird also offered to fly her to me. Again, being very shy and nervous to meeting me, she turned the offer down. I was feeling down. I thought I would never get to see her.
All along she was planning on being back in Michigan about the same day that I was to be arriving myself from Vegas. The thing was that Chris had flown to Texas to drive her back so that she didn't have to make the long drive by herself. She had purchased a Yellow Blazer while she was in Texas and that was what she drove back. Chris didn't drive any of the trip back, I might add. About a week later, Bird had also returned to Michigan because her husband is in the military and went over seas.
Now we are both back in Michigan. I don't remember the details that greatly, but Jesse, the man she met in Texas proposed to her about a week or so after she got back. She originally said yes. Then I talked to her a few times and she told me what was going and told me that she made a mistake by saying yes, that I was the one that she wanted to be with the rest of her life. She told Jesse that she had made a mistake. Jesse then made her life hard by not letting her out of his sight. He wouldn't take her home…. oh by the way…they were in Vegas when he proposed. She didn't have a way home and was trying to make her stay longer.
For some reason I cannot remember how she eventually made it home.
This is where the story starts getting crazy!!
Jesse and Kristen returned back to Michigan and I want to have some words with Jesse. But without knowing anything about Kristen's family or where she was or basically anything, Chris got to Jesse before I did and they had to call the police because a fight broke out.
Well everyone returned to their lives for a little while. Kristen was now staying with a good friend about an hour away from me again.
Kristen was back in town and staying with her mother Mary for a little while. While driving around one night, Kristen and I, still in love, were on the phone and she just so happened to tell me where she was shopping. I rushed to that store as fast as I could and waited for her to come out. She was still on the phone with me up until she was rang out at the register. She told me that she had just bought a fan. That is what I was looking for when she exited the store. Only going from pictures that she sent me online, I looked and waited. There she was and I froze. I was so nervous that I was shaking. I hurried and called her. She was already in her car and I didn't know which one she had gotten into. She drove off and kept giving me hint on where she was driving. She wouldn't stop for me and I didn't know where she went.
The next few days she left me slight hints on where I could find her. I narrowed it down to a place, but could never find her.
Kristen and I had planned on meeting for the first time. She was planning on coming over to meet me. I had a few things planned for when she got there being the sweet guy that I always try to be for her. On her way here she had a few to drink to try to ease the nervousness of meeting me. She got pulled over and arrested for drunk driving. I didn't hear from her that night at all, I was so scared and didn't know what had happened to her. Not knowing any of her family and not having any way of finding out what had happened to her, I started coming up with ways to find her.
I need to back up a little. Kristen got my name out of a diary that one of my ex-girlfriends had. The ex's name is Michelle. Kristen's mother knows that I was with Michelle and HATES me for it. Her mother wants nothing to do with me and wants me to have nothing to do with Kristen only because of the fact that I was with michelle. Kristen also does not want me to have ANY contact with Michelle at all.
Well anyways, knowing that Michelle's family knew where Kristen's mother lived, I went to Michelle's house to try to find her mother. No help there. Michelle's family is crazy to say it nicely. I was so incredibly worried about Kristen…I didn't know if she had been in an accident, been raped or murdered. I was scared! I did however get a hold of Bird, her best friend. She told me to meet her at the local dress shop where she would explain to me what had happened to Kristen. I was so relieved to hear that she was ok. SO RELEIVED! Bird had told Kristen that I went to Michelle's house. That didn't make Kristen happy.
I would say a couple weeks went by, still talking EVERY day on the phone. She agreed to come and meet me again. We agreed to meet at a local school parking lot. I drove there, sat there and waited for her. And waited… I called her to see where she was and she had told me that she watched me drive by. She was nervous again and said “ I cant do this, I got to go home” I tried so hard to get her to come meet me but her nervousness far outweighed her desire to meet me. I know she wanted to meet me and I understood. I returned home. She called me again that night and I gave her directions to my place. She drove about 1 minute away from my place and called me to tell me that she was so close but couldn't go the rest of the way. Didn't get to meet her that night either.
Kristen needed to get away for a little while, so she went about 2 hours north of where I stay to visit her aunt. She stayed there about a week. One night I drove out to that town and told her where I would be waiting for her at. I waited there for 3 hours that night and then drove back home at 2 in the morning. I was crushed again.
The only person that I had a good connection to Kristen with was Bird and I only talk to her on the Internet. Bird had mentioned to me that Kristen may have developed a drinking problem that stemmed from her grandmothers death. I called Kristen and asked her about the drinking. She told me everything. This was the first time I heard anything about a problem. I reassured her that I loved her and always would no matter what. I always told her that I loved her.
The next day or the day after, I told Chris, who is in very good with Kristen's Family that Kristen had a problem. He took it into his own hands.
Kristen got a call from her Step dad Paul, who was married to her Mother Mary. He said to have a bag packed and that he was taking her to his cabin another 2 hours further north. She stayed with him and one morning work to find her mom, step dad, and Chris there with her. They all told her that they wanted her to go to a rehab center.
They had arranged for a van to pick her up at the cabin and take her. She had called me soon after and told me what was going on. I was in tears, of course I wanted her to get better, but she didn't know where she was going, I didn't know either.
The Van eventually came and got her. I didn't hear from her for a few days, then out of the blue, I hear the sexiest southern accented woman on the phone. It was Kristen. She had snuck her cell phone into the clinic with her. She wasn't allowed to have it and had to hide it at all times. We mainly spent our nights talking to each other, telling each other how we wanted to spend the rest of our lives with each other. I was the only person who knew that she had the phone. If her mother ever found out, it would have been taken for sure. Her mother doesn't want me talking to her at all.
During this time. Mary, her mom, still married to Paul, her step dad, was fooling around with Chris. Chris is Kristen's Ex-boyfriend. So her mom is sleeping with her daughters ex-boyfriend. This caused a lot of problems with Kristen and Paul.
While Kristen is in the center, she meets a guy named Matt. He keeps tying to make advances towards Kristen. Tries kissing her. She tells me about the different things that he is doing to her. I feel so helpless. Then one morning, I get a call from her and she is crying hysterically. Matt had come into her room during the night, put his hand over her mouth and began taking off her clothes. His plan was to rape her. Just before he started to rape her, he stopped. While on the phone with her crying, I told her that she needed to go tell someone what had happened. I wanted to be with her to protect her from something like this. I didn't know where she was or anyone that could tell me where she was. Even if I did know where to find her, they wouldn't even let me in to see her. The nurses wouldn't tell her where she was.
She told the nurse on duty what had happened and the police took him away. Two days later he returned to the facility. I have never been so scared in my life. I thought for sure something was going to happen again with him. About a week later Kristen told me that she was standing in line to get food and she heard her name. She looked and it was a guy named Josh. He had just stared the rehab program that day. It just so happens the Josh is not only Kristen's ex-boyfriend from high school days, but also Matt's best friend outside of the facility.
I told Kristen to stay away from them and not to say anything to them. One day she told me that Josh had come up to her and said “why don't you talk to us anymore?” she didn't reply and then he said “don't worry, we'll get you one way or another”. When she told me that, my jaw dropped. I knew something was going to happen. I told her to tell someone what was going on. 2 nights later, she was woken up with a hand over her mouth, a guy saying not to yell and again, her clothes were literally ripped off. This time it was Josh. He made attempts to kiss her and he also put his fingers inside of her.
The first time this happened with matt, she was evaluated to make sure she was a sane human being. All kinds of tests were done. Here mom made the drive to see her after the first time. Kristen over and over told me “I just want to come home. I just want to come home.” It broke my heart to hear her say that over and over. I cry about it now as I type this, just thinking about what she went through.
The second time it happened, her mom mad the trip again. Her mom at that point found out that I had been talking to her the whole time she was in there and really began to hate me. Her mom is the only one who can say when Kristen will get out of there. Her mom talked to her therapist and told them that Kristen was crazy and that it was her own fault that it had happened to her. Her mother's goal then turned from getting her help, to keeping me from her. At this point, Kristen had been there 30 days and only had two weeks until she was done with the program. Her mother, knowing that she had the power to keep me from Kristen, decided, with the help of the nurses, to have her transferred to a rehab center in or near Manhattan NY. I am not quite sure where she is yet again.
Oh and before I forget, while she was in the first rehab center, her step dad had a heart attack. Her nurses were going to let her go and see him in the hospital, but her mother denied her that privilege.
She is now there in NY and has been there about 2 weeks. 2 Weeks ago, her mother divorced her step dad and Married Chris. Again, Chris is Kristen's ex boyfriend. 1 week ago, her mother announced to everyone that she is pregnant with Chris's child. These two things really upset Kristen. We still talk EVERY night and day despite her Mother's hatred towards me. I have spoke to her mother over the internet quite a few times and it is obvious…VERY obvious that she doesn't care about her daughters health. She is more worried about keeping her from me. She has warned me that if I don't stop talking to Kristen that she will tell the nurses that Kristen is crazy and have her put into an institution where I will never see her again.
That is where I am at now. As I type this, it is 2 in the AM. Kristen's mother and Chris have made the drive out to NY to tell the nurses that she is crazy. Kristen as well as myself are soooo scared right now. I have very limited abilities right now to talk to Kristen, but she has sent me a few text messages from her phone to mine telling me that her mom keeps telling them “put her away, she is crazy”. I keep asking her what is happening and I only get small fragments of what is happening because she is not allowed to have her phone and is trying to hide it.
For the past month we have been talking about marriage and how happy we will be when she gets done in there. We talk about how many kids we want and what their names will be. We talk about raising a family and growing old together. We cry together. We both get lonely and tell each other “a little bit longer and everything will be ok”. Every night we fall asleep with each other on the phone. I wont get that tonight. I don't even know if I will get to talk to her ever again. She tells me every day; I just want to go home, why is my mom doing this to me. The only thing I can tell her is that everything is going to be ok. I love this girl like I have never loved anyone in my life. We are so close and I think about her whenever I am not talking to her. Her mom is trying to take away her like because we love each other and want a life together. I feel like there is nothing I can do, like I am so helpless. That is why I am writing this. In hopes that someone will read this and help me finally meet the girl of my dreams.
Thank you for listening. Any help or suggestions you can give me is appreciated more than you can ever imagine.
Shawn
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