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Our Unconditional Love
Never before have had I ever realized what unconditional love between a man and woman was. Not before God blessed me with my husband, Mike. When we met, I was coming out of a terrible marriage. I had been separated from a very abusive controlling man and had come to terms with the fact that I was not worth the dirt that I walked on. For so many years I had been verbally cut down and abused. I had come to terms with my worthlessness and was willing to live with it. Then, God crossed our paths. Mike has been the most wonderful, loving, understanding and uplifting person in my life. In my past marriage I would always "hope" that my husband loved me, and I would say things like, "I believe he loves me, but I don't know why he is so mean to me." At different times in my first marriage I would find pornography and it would absolutely crush my heart and soul. Then he would cry and tell me he was sorry and wouldn't do it anymore, and then there would be more internet links to porn and magazines hidden in the ceilings of the closets, and in between the mattress and box springs of the bed. He actually tried to get me to watch videos with him and I wouldn't. My first husband made me fear men. I believed that they all did these things to women and I was afraid to ever even think about starting again with someone else. My first husband back handed me when I called him a jerk for not praying with me. He was a Sunday school teacher when I met him. He gave up teaching the kids; because the parents of the teens found out he was playing a game called Dungeons and Dragons. They approached the pastor and said they would leave if he didn't take him out of the teaching position. The pastor gave him the choice of stopping the game or giving up the teaching. He gave up the teaching. I was devastated. We were married 13 years. My new husband and I have a very blessed marriage. He is called to be a pastor and I too am called to minister. In all my life I have never known a more talkative open loving man. I can say with ALL confidence that this man loves me more than life and I love him more than I ever loved anyone. God has truly blessed me, I believe because through all the terrible times I endured with my past husband, I was faithful to him anyway until God gave me the peace to leave him. Only when I knew God gave me the OK to leave was when I actually left. I am thankful for my husband Mike and his obedience to God. I am thankful that God sent this angel into my life. Thank you Jesus!!
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