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God is good
Towards the end of my freshman year in college, I had been going to a church for a few months, and was finally ready to surrender my life to the Lord. I had a past of partying and drinking and living fully submerged in the "world" and didn't know if I was going to be able to give it all up, but God assured me that I could and that I was going to be an amazing woman in Christ. From that point on, I decided to give up my hopes and ambitions for marriage as well. Getting married had always been my biggest dream and something I had begun planning at a very young age. Putting it in the Lord's hands was a big step for me. I didn't know what to expect, but I knew that the next person I would date and even kiss would be my husband. I was ready to wait as long as God wanted me to wait for this man.
To say that it was easy would be a lie. I struggled tremendously listening to my friends talk about their boyfriends or seeing couples around campus or having to answer all my family members when they would ask, "you still don't have a boyfriend? Why?". But I knew it was worth it. I knew that my Lord, the One who loved me more than I could even comprehend, had someone GREAT in store for me. So, I kept waiting.
In the summer of my junior year, I experienced something I will never forget. It was a Sunday, and I was in church worshiping when all of the sudden, I had a clear picture of me walking down the aisle towards Brian, a guy who also attended my church and I had always been attracted to. He was the sweetest guy I knew and I had tried not to feel anything for him, but I definitely did have a crush on him. After seeing this vision, I prayed, "Lord, if this is not what you want for me, please take these feelings away. If it is, please just let me know somehow. I want to honor Your wishes, please help me do so." Immediately after I prayed that prayer, I looked out to the crowd, who were all closing their eyes and worshipping, and suddenly, I saw a light. As I looked down towards what the light was shinning on, I noticed it was Brian. God had sent me another clear indication that Brain was the man He had planned just for me.
Months passed by before anything between Brian and I happened. I kept having dreams of marrying him, and I kept being reassured by God that I had heard right, but I was growing anxious. Was I wrong? I decided to talk to my pastor about it. When I finished talking to my pastor about my story, he smiled. I was confused because I was almost on the verge of tears and couldn't understand why he would be happy about that. But then he told me that just last week, Brian had confronted him also about how, during the summer( actually the exact same day the Lord had told me I was going to marry him, we later discovered) the Lord had spoken to him that he was going to marry me. He was expressing the same concerns as I was. He thought that he, too, had heard wrong on the situation and he didn't know what to do. Our pastor had informed him to wait just a little longer, and be patient. When I came to talk to him, our pastor knew this was what God wanted for both of us.
A few days after I talked to our pastor, Brian came back to talk to him again. He informed Brian that I also received a word from the Lord to marry him, and that Brian should take some action. In our church, not many people date seriously before they are married. With Brian and I, it wasn't any different. We went on a few dates before he proposed. We didn't need to date a long time because we knew that God wanted us together, and we desperately wanted to be together as well. We both confessed that from the minute we met, we had mutual crushes on each other and those crushes grew with time. When the Lord confirmed our feelings that was all we needed. Six months after our engagement, we were married.
We shared our first kiss on our wedding day and there was not one dry eye in the church. It was the most beautiful thing to stand in front of the altar, pure and blessed by our God. Our wedding night was just as special. We both kneeled beside the bed and prayed together and thanked the Lord for bringing us so much happiness and love. As we made love for the first time, tears streamed down our faces. It was so perfect. Since then, our love for each other has grown even stronger. We feel so lucky to have found each other. God is so good. We are so happy that we waited. It was the best gift we could have ever received and we wouldn't have changed a single thing. I love you Brian!
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