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Marriage Confusion!! whats Gods Thinking
I am 19 years old and my husband 31. We got married 4 months after knowing each other and knowing the word of God we entered the relationship fornicating before marriage, He suffers from epilepsy but I was in love so I was willing to accept him for the way he was. I thought he was the perfect guy. After I got married I found out that a year before he was in a drug rehab. I was the only one working since he could not find a job. There were many times where I knew he was doing drugs and he said he would never do it again that he would get closer to God. He had pastors and everyone there to convince me, but he would do it again. I was always stressed and going bald at 19. I cried because I knew I wanted to just get a divorce but I didn't know how God would feel since we never committed adultery Physically but many times with words I did. Finally all my anger towards my husband just built up, he was a lazy guy and ungrateful that I pay all the bills. I never even think he puts himself in my shoes. Well we started fighting; remind you he has epilepsy, all the anger just built up so when we fought it would leave a lot of bruises on my back. Now after 1 year and 1/2 we are separated because the last fight we got into he hit me and left me bruises on my back, kicked me and then reacted to "sorry hit me just hit me I am sorry" so I did and I left him a black eye, 2 months later doctors say that his dizziness and double vision is the cause of someone hitting him to his eye. I messed up, as a Christian I let the enemy take my authority. I can't change my husband health conditions but I have asked for numerous forgiveness and still he says he does but brings it up all the time. Will God condem me if I get a divorce?? So confusing but I don't want to disobey him!!
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